insomniatic mumblings

lately, i have felt like i have little to say worth transferring from thought to blog. sure, it's nice when anger, frustration, and desperation gives fuel to cynicism and sarcastic rantings... but really who cares? the only people who have any idea what i'm talking about are in the midst of the same things that have me all fired up. oops... drifting off into vocational rage again... sorry, back to topic. i guess what i'm saying is that i want there to be some substance to what i write here. even so, i know it is more for me than anyone else who might be reading. and when its not fulfilling to me the there really is no point i suppose....

right now its 1:30am and i am wide awake. it's lonely when you are the only conscious soul. often it's lonely anyway....

it strikes me as odd how quickly things can change so significantly. what are you talking about joe? please give us a specific example. well, since you asked, i was thinking about how just over a month ago we went on a staff retreat at work and things seemed like we finally had a good handle upon them [see photo above for the degree of happiness evident in my visage]. today i saw the end result of all the nonsense that has been going on and the havoc it has wreaked upon my [former?] boss. makes me wonder if the fight is really worth it when i see someone that defeated and emotionally broken.

on a brighter note.... EUROPE VACATION 2005 is only 15 days away!!!!! for those of my millions of faithful readers who didn't already know, amanda and i are going on a 3 week europe vacation through france, germany, and italy. we have all our travel arrangements booked, and all our lodging reserved.... the rest is waiting to be figured out when we get there. i cannot even express to you in words how much wine will be enjoyed by me. the same goes for various breads, cheeses, and other local specialties.

sigur rós is keeping me fine company at the moment.... the ( ) album is what i am listening to....
i know you were dying to know....

well, i think i have made enough of a mark/ contribution to my personal digital legacy this fine evening and have thereby enriched a great many lives....

i leave you now to blog another day. sorry for wasting your valuable time.